Up until now I’ve been afraid to live or at least that is what my heart kept telling me.
Why is it so hard to wake up to on the right side of the bed these days? All I wanted to do I was sleep like a baby until the men in from the undertakers came to roll you out in a big pine box.
Well recently I thought back to an article I read in a newspaper many years ago. The article went like this. If you don’t like what you’ve become and are sick and tired of your positive energy being drained by all those vampire junkies, then simply change the people that you hang around with, or at least try to avoid the ones that sap our strength emotionally as much as possible.
Well I did just that! I found myself a real cool group of people to hang out with. I’m a composer originally from Manchester England not completely destitute, but as a composer also in my forties ( Please don’t put me out to pasture just yet ) Earning a living entertaining people at a bar in Nagoya, Japan. And doing this day in day out was killing me. I ‘d started to lose my self confidence, I was depressed. And I realized that I needed something to get me out of this vortex of self loathing that was making me ill.
By the way I forgot to mention that I’m married, with a 4 year old boy who continues to inspire and astound me, but even with his love and my wife’s support I was having really bad days.
So out of a sheer desperation I put my self into a group ( actually I was invited into the group) A group where there is no competition. There are no egos, just a really brilliant community that wants to help each other. It doesn’t matter where you are in your career, whether you’re a newbie or a seasoned veteran. And trust me, there are some amazingly talented people in this community of creativity.
If you have a problem. Then there is always someone around to help you out, because that’s what a community does right? The team is awesome. I’m not gonna mention any names because I don’t want embarrass anybody but these guys, are amazing. I use the word guys loosely because there are some pretty amazing girls there too. I was up until recently probably in the top 10 of the world’s complainers well no more.
From now on it’s a different mindset for me. I found myself a new religion. Just out of curiosity I looked up all the definitions of the word community, there are 3 definitions. And the third definition was bang on so here goes.
[ community ]
1. all the people living in a particular area or place.
2. a group of people having a religion, race, profession, or other particular characteristic in common.
3. a feeling of fellowship with others, as a result of sharing common attitudes, interests, and goals.
I must admit I thought the feeling of fellowship with others, couldn’t have been accurate. The feeling of fellowship can move mountains and it has, and continues to do so.
So I’d just like to thank everyone for helping to turn my life around 36o degrees.
Thank you from the bottom of my heart.
SCORECAST you’re Amazing!
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And if your a composer living in Japan, I would like to know your thought s about having a Scorecast in Japan.